Discussion: Roadblocks to Slavery

One of the roadblocks, and one that meryl is experiencing now, is to be silenced to His will sans gag. That is more difficult offline, but it makes this girl think about what is about to say, and prepare best for how to say it. Slip ups happen and are dealt with accordingly, and there can be many. meryl believes it teaches self-discipline as well as tact, because she has to stop and think, "how can meryl say this in a pleasing manner?" Online, it makes her best think how to physically express herself. Without the ability to speak, meryl has to think what is the most descriptive manner to be able to convey what she is trying to say. In this, He teaches her to be mindful of physical descriptions as one must paint a picture with words, the actions of the slave's movements. Not being able to speak moves the concentration on this.

Another roadblock that can be placed on a slave are any number of restrictions or rules to do or not do something. Owners can be both mysterious at first, or direct in their intention, however it is always in teaching a slave how to surpass a problem she may have created herself with her own roadblocks. More specific examples can be making a girl a "white silk" again (in level of training) so she can go back and rethink a lot of things only with the wisdom of what she has learned so far.

Four roadblocks a slave can impose on herself:

One is fear. Actually meryl believes this is the one that causes all the others, but this girl can let fear lock her up so much she is not progressing. Fear of making mistakes, fear of well just about everything. She can start making decisions for Him because she assumes this, that, or the other. The best balm to fear is trust. She must remind herself to trust that if he wants something done, she will be informed. She must trust that if she messes up she will be properly punished and to remind herself to not futher impose self-punishments as the issues was taken care of. She must simply trust.

Another is jealousy. meryl thinks she has had little trouble with jealousy in the past, but she has always thought of jealousy in terms of others which has never been much of a problem. She has found that she can be jealous of other things like His time, His Freedom and she had never considered to be jealous of such things as a roadblock but it can be so. One way around this is to love. Dealing with the jealousy, understanding the stem of it can also go a long way. Denying it simply represses it and makes a bigger mess, but talking about it and hashing it all out can go a long way in releasing it.

Another is crutches. It can be so easy to say, "I am sorry Master I could not get that task done, because I had school, laundry, driving to the vet, extra studies, had to meet a deadline..etc," and while this can be true, starting to use it as a crutch when could have actually taken that short cut, did the laundry a little earlier... any number of things that are time management but letting it slip is a crutch. Life's monotony can slow degrade a relationship that isn't a M/s one, and it definitely can with one. One way around this is to view the day with a sense of wonder and newness. Every day is a gift, every thing is a privilege. To enjoy life, especially the little things and tasks that go in to a day, and to pay attention to time management so everything is well balanced. Enjoy life.

Another roadblock is just plain rebellion. I think slaves and people in general repress themselves over much. Women try to be the perfect ...mom, daughter, sister, mother, wife, slave... anything. The truth of the matter is humanity is messy... it's flawed, and it was made to be that way. Striving for perfection can just about drive any woman mad, be it slavery, domesticated perfection, or anything. When you repress the Id too much, there goes the biggest explosion ever! It can be called a "mid life crises" meryl supposes, but all in all it's simply repression turned rebellion. One way around this is to accept your flaws, embrace your humanity, accept gracefully His corrections, but also when given the freedom to express negative feelings to actually DO SO.